This Is a List

5 things I say a lot

- svin(mycket/jobbigt/gott)

- Jag vet inte
- Jag är så trött
- Jag vet inte hur jag ska förklara
- Kanske

(I honestly don't know.)

5 things I think a lot

- I am so ungrateful/useless/worthless/a waste of space

- I love women so much

- I am depressed

- Don't think about that

- *What I would say at this moment to someone if I met them right now.*

5 things I dream about a lot at night

(I dream very little, but these are the few recurring ones)

- Being in love and being loved by someone I don't know.

- Having frustrating and stressful conversations

- Being trapped or stressed or in a hurry--often involving a murderer

- Getting stuck at something unable to finish it

- Being pregnant and about to give birth (this happens so often!!)

5 things very few people know about me

- I am depressed/have anxiety/social phobia

- I have seen therapists and am now doing cognitive behavioural therapy online

- I write on this blog!

- I am bisexual, undecided or very uninterested

- The very few people I have liked or had crushes on

5 things I love to do

- Read and find myself in other people's writing

- Walk in the forest

- Be completely alone in a foreign city

- Cook and do the dishes with an entertaining podcast

- Organise

5 things I want to happen before this year is over

- Visit Iceland

- Go back to Leeds

- Get to know someone I adore

- Finish something written

- Move

5 things I order abroad

- Veggie burrito or something at Chipotle

- Red velvet cake

- Anything vegan or vegetarian

- Eggs

- Breakfast!

5 things I miss in my wardrobe

- A perfect winter coat

- A silver grey chiffon midi skirt I saw on a girl in London

- A pashmina scarf

- Tops that look good with skirts

- A raincoat

5 things that smell wonderfully

- Ground coffee

- The forest

- Horses

- Bird cherry

- Summer mornings

5 things I want to get better at

- Writing

- Talking to friends

- Feeling things for people

- Making bread

- Languages

5 things I laugh at

- Podcasts

- Parks & Rec, Broad City, Friday Night Dinner, and so on

- Clever jokes

- Howl's Moving Castle

- Texts posts on tumblr

5 things that make me who I am

- My insane love for reading

- My somewhat insistent/annoying/clever joking

- My cleverness and good reading-head

- My independence and craving for solitude

- The space between everyone else and me



p.s. I adore the new design on the blog.